9.10.26

Two weekish update on my goals

hmmm still on phone lots and not being great with packing lunch / cooking but did do my laundry before it became desperate and put it away in a timely fashion which feels like a win

instead of learning either language I decided to memorize the love song of j alfred prufrock lol, I think because of how fun it was to recite Meatloaf, I am like halfway through I think 

taking suggestions on what I should memorize next 

partytrick maxxing

feels like I've entered a new stage of how I'm thinking about my relationship, post the first true freakout and being crazy

I think the most important part right now for both of us is probably doing fun things and having lots of sex (awesome) so that's the priority and if I start feeling crazy and weepy again at least there's a precedent to talk about it, trying to respect this serious and sorrowful part of myself but also not give into it all the way

reflecting on past versions of myself and my life, loving Adults on hulu 

feeling pretty good, perhaps planting seeds, working on ideas for the future

maybe I get a degree in school counseling? take up acting? write a chapbook? Who's to say

so hype about swimming laps and camping and dipping into Russian lit

8.28.26

Typed something up that felt too intense and somber and didn't want to post, shaken by watching footage of the flash floods in Nepal/Tibet

Figured out some rules and goals for myself to do with all my weird downtime when I'm at work

These things are good for me to do I think, I can be so quick to turn morose and let it paralyze me

Bled more than usual yesterday- on the blood moon no less. Creature of the night

Will have a fun drink and maybe a bath tonight while looking in on Pocket, and the treat of in unit laundry 

8.27.26

Feeling curmudgeonly and lazy at work, I think in part because of period cramps and because I'm feeling yuck about not having done my laundry in like, a month. Maybe tomorrow! 

When we got back from Spain I did nothing for a week basically which was nice but I do feel I squandered it a bit and now I am booked and busy everyday. 

A blessing that sometimes feels burdensome, you should get a government stipend for maintaining all your beautiful relationships

Excited for all the nice things coming up this fall, the booking period feels a little hectic but it'll be so good when the things actually happen, and when it gets a little chilly, yahoo

A la @lizardking, these are things I want to work on

-getting strong, jogging / big walks, going to the gym
-reading and journaling
-less phone
-Spanish and german perhaps! 
-staying on top of house chores
-self maintenance
-packing lunch
-Writing and making art
-keeping in touch